Friday, July 21, 2017

18 Months Later...

July 21, 2017
Today marks 18 months since my third child went to be with Jesus.  18 months seems so long ago and yet just like yesterday all at the same time. If you are a mother you know the feeling of bringing home your baby for the first time from the hospital and making all the adjustments needed to fit this new person in your life.  I tell people that it’s one of the strangest feelings to have to have done the opposite.  This little person you have been in charge of, making sure they are fed, clothed, cleaned, and loved no longer is needed from you. There is an empty spot not only in our house where her toy corner use to be or where her head would sleep, but in our heart and in our soul.


I am so grateful for all 5 years and 25 days we had with Faith here on Earth.  She has taught me soo many things.  Like how to advocate for your child in every single sinaro, from daily life to dealing with doctors and therapist.  They think they know best but parents know best about their own child.  And even if we don’t really know what to do, we have to act like we know.  She taught me how to be a real fighter, never give up and always SMILE.  She taught me how to not judge the ones around us.  There are so many ways she had enriched our lives.  It’s crazy to think about how many things she has taught us and she was only here a short time.  The Lord only takes the ones off Earth that have completed their mission here.  That is why she is no longer here, mission complete.  But the good news is I didn’t “lose” Faith, I know exactly where she is, in heaven with our Heavenly Father waiting for us to join her.


I still get asked “How are you and the family doing?”  I don’t know how to respond sometimes.  Most days are good but some days I miss her like CRAZY.  I can ALWAYS cry, drop of a hat about her.  They might be happy tears, remembering such wonderful things she did in her life.  They might be sad tears, because I miss her and want her to be in her wheelchair or playing with her brother and sister.  Please continue to ask and please don’t be afraid to EVER mention her name to any of us.  We love to talk about her!  She is mentioned every single day in the Pfeifer home.   


Jeremiah 29:11  For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.


Every single birthday for the rest of my life here on Earth I will wish for...one more, just one more hug with her pat pat on my back and then her look and me and hold my face with both little hands then kiss me really big then of course end with a smile looking at me.


I miss her EVERY single day.


Thanks for reading,

Ashley